You know that each person sees themselves differently from the people around them. I think this is something we should all agree on. I see myself differently from how my friends see me. But I also have the idea of what I should look like to the people around me as well, that is not particularly where I am at in life yet.
For example. I think I’m fat, huge, bulbous. My friends don’t. This helps me get out of my box also. I keep reminding myself, that even though I think I’m fat, and I shouldn’t go do something, the people around me don’t necessarily see my like that. So why should I be afraid to do something where I think everyone is going to think, “Oh gross, look at that fat girl” when in reality this is not what MOST people are thinking. I generally don’t care what people think about me, or I at least try not to, but this is where it REALLY helps me flip what people may be thinking to help inspire me to get out and do new things!
Another thing, I have this image of myself that I am a pretty normal person, and my friends think otherwise. I have also come to discover the fact I am pretty crafty. I like to do thinks like postcards and letters to friends.
I enjoy crocheting!! And I actually want to find a community crochet club to learn and be with people who like to do the same things as myself. But on the flip side, I really like going to the gym, doing work out classes, and being active.
Then another side of me REALLY enjoys the nerdy side of life. I like to listen to music from my favourite sci-fi’s. I enjoy watching reruns of Star Trek and Stargate. I like to play Munchkin with friends, and have nerd-nights with friends. I get super excited every time I watch the new Star Trek movie, anytime I see Transformers I have a surge of energy when Optimus Prime is whooping some Decepticon a$$.
Then there is this nursing side of me that I didn’t even know existed until I started nursing school. It’s crazy how I was, in fact, made to be a nurse. Anytime I am in the clinical setting I get such a sense of rightness, like I am supposed to do this the rest of my life. I also feel that I am good at nursing…. though I will ALWAYS tease I am not. 🙂 The human body is such a fascinating piece of art. My first major in school was studio arts, and I don’t believe there is a better work of art than the human body. Big or small, we all function pretty much the same. The physiology of the human is also something that just baffles me. There is so much we don’t understand about human function to this day! The constant discovering and learning is amazing. I can’t wait to be a nurse and work with tons of people all over the world.
I have been thinking about my future. About when I graduate. A lot of girls in my cohort have focuses they want to go into. I have decided I don’t want to focus on any one thing yet. I want to learn about all functions of the body before I settle on a focus. I have a feeling I am definitely going to be working medsurg as a float nurse or in the ER for many years of my life. And I feel that this is where I should be for a while. This broad base of knowledge will really help my career as a nurse in Africa too. I can’t close myself off in a box, otherwise I won’t be useful. I am not that person who can do just ONE thing though. But I can that person who can be really good at multiple things and if there is a need for someone who specializes in ONE thing, I know how to ask for assistance.
I guess this little piece was just a blog about me and how I see myself. Oh well. 🙁 Sorry if it was lame! Enjoy, I must get to doing homework again.