I haven’t necessarily been following the path I know I should be these last few months. Frankly, I’m done with it. I had an episode the other day that has taught me a lesson. I have also learned life is WAY too short for me and there are so many things I want to do. I am completely capable of doing these things as well.
It may be well past New Year’s, but here is my New Year’s Resolution. To be all I can be…to not give up on my dreams… to do the best I can in EVERY situation.
I’m a Christian, but I would rather say I love God because He loves me regardless what I do. I am stopping this slope away, I am stopping my bad habits, I am going to stop slipping in to this depression I am sliding into. I do not want to be depressed and I know how to fight my way out of it.
A few things that help me out of my depression:
- Not being in my apartment….frankly I can’t stand it here
- Listening to hymns and reading my devotionals
- Doing my ritualistic face washes and body scrubs
- brushing my teeth
- going to the gym
- going on adventures
- and of course River my little kitten
This past weekend I hurt a friend. I didn’t mean to and I am very sorry for the loss. However, they will not believe me when I tell them the truth… so hopefully they come around at some point. They got a lie in their head about me and won’t hear me out or believe me at all…. and I can’t change their mind. I’m very sorry that they won’t listen, but maybe it just means they were not the friend I thought they were.
Anyway, time for me to sleep. I must go to the gym in the morning. Since last year I have lost about 35 pounds… just because nursing school was over and I am much more active now … and not eating out of boredom. Oh and my body adjusted from not eating, to eating, to now being healthy 🙂 YAY!
Goodnight to those who read. I hope in the next coming months I can inspire someone.