I am restless. The doors keep slamming. I know I am meant for more than this life I am living right now. The day to day routine just going to my little jobs is training, building, and shaping me for something else. I JUST KNOW IT!
I am ready. I am going to find a path, make it if I have to, and I am going to go live my life the way I want to. I need an adventure. Many of you who keep up with my life are probably wondering how my life hasn’t already been an adventure.
I mean in 2010 I got married, moved to my own apartment, started nursing school.
In 2011 I went to Africa, worked as a camp counselor, passed my first year of nursing school, started my senior year and my husband moved to DC and soon after decided we can’t fix our marriage and it ended.
In 2012 I went through the divorce, moved a few times, lived at a patient’s house for hospice care and then helped her pass away, was in Africa for about 6 weeks at different times, started work at three different jobs…. and here I am. Finally getting all my name crap changed cause the courthouse kept sending me the WRONG paperwork.
I’m happy with my life, I’m content… but I am always looking for ways to be better, have new experiences, and keep moving forward. I am not the type to be the cute little housewife, with the dumb white picket fence, and babies. I will not choose to have that cage as my life. My ideal life is one of traveling, apartments or condos, and new people… and definitely no children. I love working with kids, I don’t want kids.
I’m applying for jobs in New Mexico. Yes, it may seem like a step backwards because I have lived there before, but I don’t see it as that. I am also going to apply in Texas, Georgia, Louisiana, and possibly Florida. I mean…. might as well. I might as well see what adventure I can go on. I’m young enough.
As much as I would like to go with Serve the Children this year to Africa or even India…. I don’t think that is the adventure I am suppose to have this year. It breaks my heart, but my adventures are going to take me elsewhere. I am even going to apply to England. My ideal life is one of travel and adventure.
I want to work as a nurse, take pictures, write letters, record my life in journals, and just follow the road before me.
“It’s a dangerous business, Frodo, going out of your door. You step into the Road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there is no knowing where you might be swept off to.”